Servants Heart

This week I had struggled with feeling like "the overworked and under-appreciated housewife." Kristen and I joked that I was like the wife and she was the working husband. I do a lot of the cleaning up and cooking and she is usually busy with doing school work. Not that I dont do work, because I usually stay busy during the day with my own school work and tutoring. I have a lot of free time in the evenings, but I usually make up for it. I may be able to do some painting for some of the classrooms in the school. I am here to serve and volunteer so if someone needs me I can do it.
I should be happy to serve. Even in the menial things such as making Kristen lunch or dinner, or doing her laundry on top of mine. I should do these things without complaint, so then why do I get cranky about doing it sometimes? Sometimes I dont want to cook, sometimes I dont want to do dishes, sometimes I dont want to clean the bathroom. That isnt a servants heart, though. I should be happy to do it without expecting anything in return. That is a servants heart, and that is exactly what I wanted to have. The complaining that swirls around in my head sometimes needs to stop. Why is it easier sometimes and then not other times? I struggle with having a willing heart sometimes. Im praying for a better one.

On another note, I asked my kids to draw their favorite class.... and they all said that English was their favorite class, and drew me. Even though they would say that whatever class they were in at that moment was their favorite.... It still made me feel good to know that my kids liked me. I subbed for one of the other English teachers last week for 1st grade... It was so much fun. They still say hi to me in the halls. They have no idea what an encouragement they are to me. Everyday.